I found out I was pregnant on September 19th 2012. I was a week late for my period, and while that wasn't completely abnormal something was just a little off. Shawn had made some remarks about my boobs looking bigger but I thought I was just putting on weight. The scale didn't support that but what else could it be? My breasts were also super painful which has never been a symptom of my period and so just to rule it out I picked up a pregnancy test. I took the test while Shawn was at work. It turned positive after about 1 minute. Uh-oh! I took a picture and sent it to Shawn saying that we have a problem. He was overjoyed and said he cried he was so happy. The next day I took 2 more tests and both came back positive before the timer went off. The next week brought exhaustion I never knew possible! On my days off I couldn't get out of bed and all I wanted to do is sleep. The next week brought nausea. Horrible awful! And I don't know why they call it morning sickness. The joy of it is constant and stays with you day and night. I called some women's clinics and picked one to make an appointment. October 16th would be our first baby check up. I started on prenatal vitamins and read up on eating healthy for baby. I started having some low cramping on the left side. Never having gone thru this, it was terrifying. I read from other moms that it was normal. I started eating A LOT of crackers, as it was sometimes the only thing that would settle my stomach. We went to our first appointment and were very happy with Dr. Tan. He was great at answering questions and putting us at ease. To my delight I found out that pregnancy tea is encouraged and that an occasional Dr pepper won't hurt my baby. We had our first ultrasound. We were surprised to see the baby looking like a baby and not a lizard! It was all wiggles and looked to be dancing. The baby's heart was beating fast and the doctor assured us it was normal and very healthy. He said the uterine wall looked good and was the right size, amniotic sac looked healthy and good, the baby was "plugged in right" meaning the umbilical cord was healthy and where it should be, the yolk looked good and would probably be gone on the next ultrasound (in the ultrasound picture it looks like a thought bubble), he said the baby also looked very healthy and was an inch long. He told us I would not be able to feel the baby till about December as I was only 9 weeks along. He gave me a due date of 23 May 2013 (Thursday). He printed off our baby photos and had us make an appointment for 6 November for our next check up that would include blood work.
The all day sickness continues to get worse (Dr Tan said it will start to go away around week 12). The cramping comes and goes. And I'm still very tired. As I lay in bed last night I couldn't help but think, a parasite is an organism that lives off a host. It usually drains the host of nutrients and makes them sick (vomiting and diarrhea-which I have), makes them tired and run down. I caught it from my husband so it's basically a parasite I caught from an STD. This creature will continue to grow until it can survive on it's own-ish then my body will say "I have had enough you little loafer! Consider yourself evicted!" Then in the most painful way my body can come up with it will kick the kid out. It will push the 7ish pound pumpkin thru a 10ish cm opening. The baby will come out red, wrinkly, covered in goo and screaming! And they tell me I will want to pull this to me and feed it and cuddle it and I will call this creature that made me feel awful for 9 months "cute" and "precious". This makes no since to me now. Then I will take it home and get no sleep for months and be even more exhausted and I will love this more than anything...I need some help understanding this. Who came up with this?
Right now I am laying in bed nauseous and tired and unable to get comfortable. The bump is already starting to show at 2 1/2 months. I have to admit though, seeing the baby move was exciting. Being responsible for growing a whole new person from scratch is overwhelming and knowing that whether or not it is healthy and safe is all on me is more than enough reason to stay in bed for 9 months! I am very much looking forward to watching my belly grow and December will be fun. I will feel baby kick, they will be able to hear sound and the best part is we find out if it's a boy or girl. For now I think I'll just take a nap. Dr Tan said take them when I can now because that will be a thing of the past when baby arrives. :)
